"I am Changing"

Sooooo to all of you who don't know me. I am the proud writer for Self Love.
This little ole' blog- started for me, oh so long ago. When I took a turn for the best- I discovered health.
I'd say it started with my jobs- yes. Mani's Bakery to be exact. Coming from Georgia, I didn't know to much about health food or greens, I just knew they could be fried. ;) Well at Mani's their ways were a bit different. The cafe actually started for a diabetic actor, whose chef was named 'Mani'. He created sweets for him that tasted good- and didn't use splenda or sweet n' low. He used sugar alternatives that were natural, and mostly low on the glycemic index. From that- he created his bakery, which for a very long and popular time, resided on fairfax. I thankfully lived beside there- went there a lot to get a baked good, and loved them so much. I decided to work there. This introducing me into a world of health knowledge. Thankful for Mani's, for showing me the start- of my now,  Love, for health and all that goes with it.

From that time- lots has happened, I've had many restaurant jobs, just for the pay- obviously. Not because I liked it, unfortunately. I was on again off again trying to be an actress. Working lots of hours in the extra work business on many shows. Then finally finding myself interviewing to work at Whole Foods. What I thought, would be the best of them all. And it was. Working in Venice, this job I'd like to say, saved me. It was the most positive thing I had in my life at that time, and I'm so thankful for what I learned there- the people I met, everything. It was great. Not to mention my boyfriend. :)

Now I find myself- after going on vacation....Probably the best vacation I've had in my life. I was surrounded by love. Seeing two people, who I know, and love, become united as a couple. And see their families come together, and have a great time. All at the same time of being in a beautiful place. Where nature is all around you. The amazing water. The sun, the language, the people enjoying themselves. Living life, simply. As it should be. It was a great time. After coming back from there.....I went back to where I am very unhappy, and do not like being in that environment. I decided, no more, I am taking a long break from this- to think, to explore in my mind, what truly needs to be. Where is my life guiding me? I have no clue. More like, where am I guiding myself? Definitely, not the right way. We are never supposed to be unhappy in life. And I don't mean the selfish kind, where one day you realize you didn't make a thousand more dollars than the day before. I mean the kind that deep down, in your heart, tells you is right or wrong. You and only you know what the feeling is and when it is saying it to you. Mine has been talking to me for a very long time, and I've been ignoring it. The way I've been living- is also not right. I felt cluttered in my mind. Most things I say or do to people, within twenty minutes, I am thinking of a way I could've said or done it differently. I've been creating so much junk in my mind, of worrying- regretting, etc. My mind has not been cleared. And it's time to do that. You have to figure out your way though- do what inspires you to do this. To make a change, to push yourself- even though your so scared. You know it has to be done.

There was a time on my vacation where we were at an Xtreme Tour park. With zip lines, rappel's, swimming in caves, etc. It was all made out to be this great time of doing all these fun and exciting activities. So I was all for it, with my boyfriend who is very adventurous- If only I could be a little more energetic about such things :) BUT none the less- we began. With the Rappel first. He went first of course, and I followed along- I realized when I was hanging off the edge, I couldn't do this. I didn't trust my strength enough to believe I could do this- and not hurt myself. My knees were shaking, our tour guide was looking at me, telling me it'd be ok. But something in me was so scared. It was out of my control, my legs were shaking- and I'm pretty sure I was close to passing out. I told our tour guide, I can't do this- and he says, yes you can, it's easy Krysten, just do it. I was very close to asking him to help me get back on the level, so I could not do this- but I didn't want to fail at this. I chose in that moment, another way to get down- and yes, still scary. I did it. I didn't do it alone. We don't do anything alone. We always have the help of someone else in our lives, who gave us courage, and strength to get up and do it. Do whatever we know we want most for ourselves.

So I found my 'thing'. I watched 'Eat, Pray, Love'. My favorite movie. My favorite book. To me, it's partially the story of my life, minus all that amazing traveling she did. I went through the same love problems as her- and mostly it was just her. She knew she was settling, she knew she had to move forward and find something new with her life, cause she was missing something. And that folks, is me. Oh so much so. I am on a journey to find myself- as we all are. How we do it- is up to you. I'm just so thankful for people who share their own stories.  This 'Eat, Pray, Love' book means so much to me, and gives me hope. I didn't know was possible 5 years ago when I first read it. It changed my life. And every time I watch it over and over again- I still love it, and feel differently each time I watch it. But I always love it. It's almost like re-reading a journal you wrote, then noticing how far you've come. But so many wise people she met in that book, taught me as well. Thankful for those people to share their wisdom with the world.

Now I've discovered this detox ....the 'Eat, Pray, Love' detox. And I'm just wondering- this book is always following me in the best way. I read this woman's detox she created- based on how much she loved the movie as well. What an awesome way to keep the 'eat, pray, love' going. In your everyday. So I just wanted to share with you - this as well. And maybe you'd give it a try.

My Gratitude journal will be on here.
Because I want to share what I am thankful for to the world. Hopefully you'll share as well. :)

My 3 things I am grateful for today.


I am grateful for my boyfriend, who has taught me so much. He is patient, and kind, and sweet and has made me learn to be easy going- he surprises me all the time, by how much very little bothers him. He's amazing. and I'm so thankful my life lead me to him.

My family & friends.. Such a unique group of individuals, but all fit so perfectly together. I am so thankful for knowing them all, especially my best friend zac, my grandparents and dad. Whether physically here or not, their always with me. These people made me strong and able to walk through life alone, with a good head on my shoulders. I'm thankful to have so many memories with them all, and making new ones with them in the future.

For health. I am thankful that I am in good health- and that I am aware of maintaining and becoming even more healthy. Through knowledge I've learned and will learn- I am happy I can soak it all up like a sponge, and really know that these changes we make, do make a difference. I'll continue to do all I can to share with others- what I know.

<3 Thank you for reading ....